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Resent thoughts

Today we are in Missoula Montana I really like this aria, it is a college town and it seems very progressive. There are a lot of really neat stores hare Today I went to a Fair trade store and bought some buttons with progressive sayings on them. I don’t know why, but I collect these kinds of buttons. I usually get buttons that deal with issues such as world peace and environmentalism.  I’m somewhat of a hippie and proud of it. I’ve been trying to figure out what I want out of life on this trip, I have basically come to the conclusion that I have my whole life to figure this out. I don’t have all the answers and I’m far from perfect and I am willing to admit to it, this trip has been hard for me because I have never had so many restrictions put on my life before and no mater how hard I try everything I say or do seems to be wrong, plus I tend to have a different kind worldview than most people which has lead to some conflicts. I try my best but my best is never good enough.

            Some things that I have learned about myself on this trip are that I am very competitive and tend to try and turn everything into a race.

            I have a lot of problems with authority and often do things I normally wouldn’t do just because I’m told not to.

            I don’t think before I talk or act.

            I can be very aregent at times.

            I am highly opinionated about everything

What I truly want to do in life is go to grad school and do research for a living.