Today was probably one of the worst days of my life, I killed a squral, and I feel so bad all I want to do is, cry. It got in the way of my tire I swerved, he/she swerved and my tire collided with it’s neck. I struggled for a few minuets and than it died, and nothing I do will bring it back. I never thought that my reckless behavior could contribute to the death of an innocent animal. I wish I could have baled out.   I don’t deserve to ever feel happy ever again. This makes me the biggest hypocrite ever considering I’m a vegan who thinks non-violence is the highest form of morality. Well anyway I am writing out of sadness not rationality right now. Diner was good and we saw the mayo clinic. And there was some nice scenery on the way in and I hate myself right now